Who is to say if this is reasonable or unreasonable? But Jake Brigance made a fatal mistake tonight. He took the wrong step, intentionally. I don't think I can forgive and forget. This may be it. I don't know I want to see him again, even though we have 2 scheduled events this week (and by "event," I mean RSVP kind of events.)
Granted, I've been lookin for the red flag, and had yet to find it. I was very upset today about something, and he seemed so understanding. But yet tonight, when he knew I needed his support, his bailed on me. He couldn't suck it up this one time and stay out with me. I have known him exactly one month to the day.... And I haven't asked anything of him in the least bit unreasonable. I think he should have bent in my direction a tad bit tonight. Not only did he know that I was upset about several of my friends moving away in the next few weeks, he also knew that one of my hangups from my ex-relationship was that the Ex (Emotional Roller Coaster) stifled me and rarely wanted to do anything social. He knew that, but he still did this.
Flirty thinks tomorrow I may change my mind. I think she may think I'm being harsh. I won't say never, but I'm doubtful that this can be remedied. My fears were realized tonight regarding relationships. He knew what those were, but yet he chose this path.
Now that Flirty and others are leaving, I'm certain to lose this social life that I love so much. And it saddens me to an extent you can't imagine.
