And I was wondering the other day why I am frightened of another relationship. I received a little "friendly" reminder yesterday and today.
My ex-BF, the one who stifled me for 2 years. Mr. Emotional Roller Coaster himself, had decided that he could be my friend finally, after about 7 months of being apart. It worked for about, um, 2 weeks.
Then he freaked out on me yesterday because HE didn't get an invitation to a mutual friend's wedding. I had nothing to do with that, in fact, I gave our mutual friend his address for the invite list!
But apparently, it's all my fault because I wasn't a "good enough friend" to my ex-BF in that I didn't call our mutual friend and inquire as to why he didn't get an invitation. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? Since when was it the norm to be responsible for your ex's social life???
I told him he's giving me an ulcer.
This, people, is why I'm so very reluctant to get in another relationship. I don't want to be someone's emotional crutch. I fear being too responsible for someone else's feelings. I want a partner, an equal, someone who likes the same things that I do. Someone who is fairly social, not a hermit. I don't need someone who drags me down.
Is that so much to ask?
